The decision

So, I haven't written in awhile. I don't really have a good excuse other than I simply fell out of the habit. But now I am trying to get back in the habit because I love to write. I'm not particularly good at it but it is nice to get words on paper (or computer) and see the result when I am done. I also like to work through problems or decisions through writing. Today I am struggling with a decision and my morning run helped me start to think through the debate, but even that didn't help me come to a decision.

The debate...should I leave work. I have had a steadily growing career for almost 20 years. It is part of who I am and I've been able to grow and learn about myself and meet amazing people along the way. Kyle is supportive of any decision I make. The upside of working...I like what I do and I think I add value to the projects I work on. Not to mention, I am paid pretty well which allows us to aggressively save for college, retirement and vacations. The downside of working...too many hours a week outside of the home. It seems like a no brainer, the upside seems to far outweigh the downside. But the reality is different. If I stayed home I could spend more time with the kids, getting to know their friends better and being there to help them when they have a bad day.

I know there are people who feel strongly that moms should stay home and others that feel strongly that moms should work. I don't feel strongly either way. I think being a mom is hard enough either way and there are good and bad moms on either side of this decision. I don't know if I will be a better mom if I stop working. But, after putting all of this down on paper (or computer), I think I am closer to a decision. Stay tuned for an update.